Stay Motivated

I'm back! Not like I went anywhere really. I've written and re-written this post I want to say about five times. I just couldn't seem to find the right words to express the point I wanted to get across, but I've found them. After a lot of thinking and paying attention to those around me I found my point.

Everyoneee keeps asking me when are you going to finish school. What are you going to do with your life. TO BE HONEST... I don't know. I know what I am good at. I know what I would like to do. It is the matter of making my gifts useful for me as a career. It is a matter of branching out and stop hiding my talents, because I feel insecure and think I would never make it. I am an amazing and creative writer. I have amazing skills of organizing events and making sure things go off without a hitch. I am a great people person, and love to help others. I would love to have my own business where these gifts gave me a career I could live off of.

I reached out to an old classmate of mine from high school. I knew that she would be able to give me insight on my problems. I did a feature on her on the 'Guest Artists' page. Khalima and I weren't close close in high school, but I've seen her grow since and I just wanted to know how she was doing it. She created something so beautiful and amazing that people seem to really love and appreciate. LimaLoops, a clothing line made solely from crocheting. I admire her for starting her own brand. For branching out. She shared her gift with people when she didn't have to and now most of the people in Boston know about LimaLoops. I really do hope that it does nothing but blossom even more from here. Not to repeat myself because I stated this in her feature, but Limaloops started because it was a hobby that got Khalima to focus on something else other than her problems. It gave her motivation, and once it took off the motivation to keep it alive only grew. 

The point behind talking about Khalima was not only to remind myself why I write and why I blog but to remind others why their gifts matter. Why it is important to stay motivated to a goal. My friend Taylor right now is motivated to be healthy and to get in shape. She goes to the gym at 5:30 am, like gets there so shes waking up at like 5 am (which is so hard for me to do), then she goes to work and works an eight hour day, then goes home and meal preps and plans out the next day. My friends and peers all around me are finding things to focus on. They have goals they are working towards, and I forgot what mines were for a minute. 
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As a kid they neglect to tell you how hard it to find what you love to do, or that once you do find your passion it will not be easy to obtain. I got so depressed while in school. So down and low to a point where I lost myself. It wasn't all bad, because I learn a few things along the way. So to be completely honest I don't know what is next for me, but I haven't been semi-happy like this in a long time and I am happy where I am at right now. I am motivated to continue to improve my writing, my friendships, and my life. To grow closer to my family, and to live for Alani, because I never did before. 

Remember what it is like to live. Remember what it is like to be happy. Remember what is like to have aspirations. Be motivated, stay motivated. Never let someone else's unhappiness determine yours. Motivation is a major key for success.